Well, I think a lot has happened since I last posted. After Felix and I split last tuesday, I ended up talking to an older Dominant, we'll just call him S. He was interested in me at first, but after a few days we both became aware that this is not a good time in my life for me to be contemplating becoming a Dominant's 24/7 submissive as I'd like. (Though we also had compatibility issues.) I am remaining friends with S as he seems a very decent man who I could learn a lot from and I have agreed to have him be one of my mentors.
I know I'm not in a good place in my life. Two relationships fall apart one right after the other (though one only lasted a couple weeks at most). I'm finally feeling single again and wondering what there is out there that I can learn about myself. I did agree with be pretty much long distance friends with benefits with my friend A from Michigan, who is a switch. We both have an understanding of each other and I normally wouldn't do this, but I'm not looking for anything and he's actually not really my type when I look for a Dominant. So it's all fun to get my kinky sex itch scratched while I figure myself out. I can still go to school and look for work, there is no pressure to be in a relationship right now and I am enjoying it. It's been a while and I know I need this. Hell, my therapist told me I need to not be in a relationship right now because I'm not in a healthy enough place. I know I'd be a burden, so I'm working on myself and trying to enjoy my time alone. (A long distance fwb just makes masturbation more fun lol)
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