Today this slave got a name. ^w^

Today, this slave was officially named Thrall by my Master. ^w^ It is very happy with the name, especially when it hears my Master growl it in this slave's ear. *blush*

Feeling good tonight ^w^

This slave will be going to bed happy tonight, though not as happy as if it were in my Master's bed. It is happy that it was able to spend so much time today talking with my Master. It is also happy that Monday is growing closer. It is happy that it will be watching The King's Speech (a movie that this slave thinks looks awesome) tomorrow with its family, while having ham for Easter dinner (which it is celebrating that holiday, despite the fact it is no longer Christian). It is also looking forward to cuddling with my Master, watching Doctor Who, and eating half off Easter candy on Monday. ^w^ It is very much excited that this weekend is almost over and how it has a job interview with Petsmart on Tuesday. ^w^ It is overall in a very happy mood as it feels it has achieved a lot so far today.

Another update

This slave is very happy it made a lot of money from it's work previously and is very excited to see my Master on monday. ^w^ Doctor Who and half price Easter candy will be a fun way to spend the day. ^w^ It also hopes it gets the job it gets the tour for on tuesday.


On another note, what in the world is it with people who don't know a whole situation feeling they have every right to say they know what a person is going through? This slave knows it can assume it is feeling the same way as another or having been through a similar experience, but it is never the same. Understanding emotions (empathy) is far more understandable than making assumptions. It knows it can understand another person's emotions, but beyond that it can be making assumptions based on personal experience regarding how another person is feeling. This slave is realizing this as it is cutting off contact with some older people in the community. It feels as if those who are older are possibly more biased against it because of its age and because they think they know all about the situation, when in reality, they know nothing. (This is referring to a third person, besides this slave's former mentor and the mentor's Daddy who has decided to make herself a part of this mess, which is really unnecessary, and reeks of high school-like behavior. Did it mention it hates gossip?) Yes, this is the affect the gossip is having. It wishes people would just stop telling it to "grow up" when clearly they haven't themselves. (Again, how is continuing gossip anything but childish?)

Needless to say, this slave will be thinking of my Master as it sleeps tonight as it seems he is its only safe haven. The local community has practically ousted it (at least some have) based on gossip and the fact that it is 22 years old implies it is immature. Yeah.... It is going to its happy place now as it no longer wishes to associate with people who are so full of themselves they can't accept that there are three sides to every story, and instead focus on just one, refuse to listen to the second, and don't even go looking for the truth. This slave pities those people, but is tired of being dragged down by them.

Picked up final paycheck and got a job offer in one day ^w^

This slave picked up its paycheck from its former employer today and made a fair amount in that paycheck. ^w^

It is also happy to say it got a job offer from a place in Ferndale and was invited to get a tour (leading up to setting up an interview it is sure) for Tuesday.

On the downside (but kinda upside), it found out that its former mentor is still gossiping about it online. It used a sock account to defend itself, as the former mentor blocked it, and apparently defending itself made it a bad guy. Thankfully it has an understanding Master who saw that it was only defending itself. ^w^ (No one else seems to, but that just makes the local community look bad if they honestly believe that shit in this slave's opinion.) No one wins when there is gossip, just a bunch of people getting hurt. If only this slave's former mentor (who is 53 years old) and her Daddy Dominant (who is 57 years old) would actually listen to that fact instead of ignore it, things would be better. But there's no use crying over what can't be fixed. It feels the loss was theirs for not listening and for continuing to gossip. This slave is very happy with my Master and would love it if those assuming otherwise would at least be honest rather than go behind its back.

feeling better

This slave is feeling loads better after talking to my Master last night. It feels very lucky to have such an understanding and caring Master. ^w^

Besides that, family issues still exist. This slave is considering family therapy and will talk to its therapist about that on tuesday.

The rest of the evening hasn't gone so well....

This slave just found out that its parents don't want it hanging out with my Master till Monday. So it can prove to them again that it is looking for a job after losing the other one, and because, to them, it seemed like this slave was having too much fun with my Master and not focusing on fixing the rest of its life. >.< (This slave also found out that some people that it lived with in Oregon the winter of 2009 sent its family a letter saying how this slave talked badly about its family to them. It didn't find this out till tonight.) Though, apparently, this slave's dad says it needs to be in the kitchen more to learn how to cook if it chooses to somehow be "lucky" and find a man willing to take care of it and have it be a housewife as he thinks this slave is so adversed to housework. (It's not that it doesn't like housework--it would much rather do housework than work in a job sometimes. Though it didn't do housework today for my Master, it does feel terrible about that, but was punished by my Master, forgiven, and this slave will not do that again.)

This slave also was bad and texted my Master though he said not to when it was distressed and it feels terrible about that. It really hopes to hear from my Master soon. This slave is still feeling quite depressed now that its family is imposing on it again and now it feels like it failed my Master again because of being depressed. This slave really hopes to hear from my Master soon. It really would like to feel his presence somehow as it won't be able to see him at all this weekend and won't be able to see him till Monday. >.<

First night with my Master ^w^

Last night this slave spent its first night with my Master. ^w^ It was very good for both of us, this slave thinks. It likes to think that there was a lot of fun to be had in that. It only hopes it'll be able to stay the night again this weekend so that this slave can watch Doctor Who with my Master. ^w^ The one thing it remembers most about last night is that this slave was bound by my Master and wore a hood for the first time. It also remembers how much it tossed and turned getting used to my Master's bed last night lol (This slave must remember not to hog all the blankets in its sleep.) This morning went well too, this slave thinks. Although it didn't clean like its Master had asked (which was rather difficult, and it hopes my Master understands about the flashback it had while it started cleaning) so it was punished for disobeying, and this slave knows that. Overall though, this slave feels everything went really well for the first time it stayed the night with my Master. ^w^

Voice training and lost job

This slave is now to speak like this as my Master (Dark Fox) has begun voice training for it. This slave is very happy with the voice training and is always looking for ways to practice more so it can further please my Master.

On another note, this slave unfortunately lost its job as a waitress yesterday. Thankfully my Master and therapist have been very understanding of the situation. This slave's family on the other hand is sending it mixed signals. This slave is looking forward to staying over night for the first time with my Master and it feels so safe and relaxed with my Master. ^w^ The plan for tonight is for this slave to study for tests tomorrow and my Master is very understanding about that. This slave doesn't know what else my Master has planned for tonight but is happy either way to be able to spend time in the relaxing environment that is created for this slave when it is around my Master. ^w^

Have you been through some form of orgasm training?

My Master has been doing orgasm training with me for weeks now. I am not allowed to cum without his permission, whether we are together in person or not. He also has a command phrase that only he is allowed to use in order to allow me to cum. He has also used erotic hypnosis with me alongside this orgasm training. ^w^ I am very happy with how things are going with my orgasm training.

Yay!

I am officially Dark Fox's owned, collared, and in training slave. ^w^ *does happy dance* I am so happy with how today went. I am actually typing this up in my class at the Community College lol

Begging for Dark Fox's collar tomorrow. ^w^

Tomorrow I will be begging to wear Dark Fox's collar. It was supposed to be today, but my family pretty much tried getting in the way of my seeing him. It does give me more time to think on what I am going to say in my begging for his collar. I know I really do long to be his. ^w^ I am very comfortable with him. This is something I am very excited for. ^W^

^w^

Today is only the second day I have spent away from Dark Fox. I am already looking forward to seeing him again tomorrow. ^w^ I am doing my best to prepare for Sunday as well, as that is the day I am to beg for his collar. ^w^ I don't really have much to say, but I am very excited. So excited in fact that I am out of words lol